Monday, September 9, 2013

I Hate You, I Love You Again

13,
                Lovelies, I have a problem. A big problem with douchebags. Especially, douchebags who intentionally lead us on. The rule of thumb is that we’re going to meet at least 1 of these in our life. They ruin our confidence, tear away our backbone, and shove false pretenses in our faces. There is no amount of Nutella to heal these woes. That torture truly messes with our heads, and in some cases, even with our bodies because we were convinced to do so much in their name. Whether it’s 2am texts every time they break up with their partner or blatant flirtation whenever you’re looking “better than usual”, an empty feeling settles within and every girl knows that moment when tears prick the eyes in a fleshly mock of a loneliness you didn’t know you had till then. I don’t care what kind of excuses these people have; they’re playing with hearts. It frustrates me to no end to see this happen to those close to me, or any other human being for that matter. It’s not cool. It’s a vicious act out of they’re own need for compensation and one poor soul is caught up in the middle of the grotesque show of humanity. No one can convince me there is a right reason to lead someone to believe you have the same romantic feelings for them as they for you. It’s disgusting and I wish I could avoid these people like the plague, but, most of us get caught up in at least one of these situations, so sadly the question to ask is not how we can avoid them, but how to combat them. No, it’s not to eat all the ice cream you have due to this disastrous flameout of a romance. You take care of yourself. You surround yourself with good friends, let them keep you accountable, and get into the motivation to IGNORE THE PRINCE CHARMING IMPOSTER. You deserve way better than someone who chases you on and off. You deserve way better than someone who’s only desire from you is a dance in the sheets, or your friend’s attention (that’s happened to me), and etc. Distract yourself from either the pain or the want with a practice of self-indulgence or charity. It works! And you may not want to mentally get away from that “oh so cute douchebag” right now because you’ve become so used to fawning over him, but trust me when i say it is better for you and it’ll open your eyes to seeing somebody far superior to the pompous jerk you’re falling for.
               - In love and with a loud frown from all this doucebaggery talk, 13

 (P.S - I enjoyed calling people out on their fluff and using douchebag so many times way too much.)




 
23,
                  Do you remember how much it hurts to be lied to? To be fed a promise and betrayed; to hate a person for what they have done, but to love a person simply because they are them. Being lead on, by lover or by friend, hurt horribly. It’s the worst kind of pain because no matter what they did to you, you naturally compare it to how they have treated you in the past. Even though you hate them for what they did, you love them for being a part of your life. This has happened to me on several occasions. I’ve had friends where they’d be wonderful, pleasant people, but one day they turn into some awful human being and all of the sudden you’re crying in a bathroom stall. But in terms of relationships, it’s so mu h worse. It hurts to be seeing one thing then told another. Sometimes I like to refer to those who lead others on as- not any form of foul language- but as shape shifters. I call them this because not only can they change personalities so quickly, but because nothing that is human would choose to put another human through so much pain and confusion. It’s awful because they drain you of your humanity, and you won’t even realize it until you begin to see the world as an awful place, and find yourself to be contributing to that same kind of awful that you were so unfairly exposed to. These people, man or woman; these shape shifters will drag you down to their level. They will cause you to hurt others in the way that they hurt you. You may crave equilibrium- revenge. And when you realize that the monster cannot damage the monster, that monster will try and damage an innocent. The cycle then repeats. However, there are those out there that are strong enough to deal with the consequences in a less harmful manner. It is the difference between quitting and survival. Two wrongs don’t make a right. A plane can fly on just one engine. You will regret staying to long with someone that you’ll soon forget. You must let go .This is the difference between heartbreak and revival.
                It is much like flying into Las Vegas- you find nothing more beautiful and promising than the bright, shiny lights of the strip. You were taken in by the spotlight. Your heart may as well be the money you’ll throw away at a casino. You know, you can always love, but you can’t always win.
                Unfortunately for those that become prey to the shape shifter and find them to be their first “love,” it will be so much harder for them to turn around and leave. They will spend their next year piecing their life back together. They have to deal with the nostalgia that comes along with their first ever crush. It is extremely hard to let them go. Some are able to completely demolish their feelings; others are not so lucky. My advice is to stop thinking about them- to completely remove them from your life. I say this because, hell, while you’re off running towards the joker, you don’t see the king waiting on your door step. Once you let go of the bad, you become open to the good- to the wonderful. I am living proof. Even the most hopeless people have hope…and I’ll say it again: You can’t catch what doesn’t want to be caught.
                If this sounds like you, sweetie, it’s time to run. It’s time to make your choice.
                                Do you quit or survive?
                                Heartbreak or revival?
                Your choice just made or broke your next relationship.
-23

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