Oddballs

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         Love sometimes turn us oddballs into odd squares; still unique, but fitted to their expectations by our own means. Changing our ways is not something we will allow in romance. If we are trying to better ourselves as a person, great, but we will never let inner nor outer forces grasp our personalities and mold it to something we only want to be for the relationship. We must put our ALL, I repeat, ALL into that relationship which you are deep in. To be deep in a relationship never means you’ve already gotten to know each other. It means you KNOW them, but not necessarily SEE them in all their ugly and magnificent glory. Sure, you‘ve seen them naked. Sure you’ve seen them at an emotional state. Does that mean though that you’re done? You have them in your arms, you have an idea of their dark corners and spaces. It is so much more work than that. Being you and seeing them in a relationship takes some of the greatest effort in the whole process. There is no more important thing than getting to know each other FOR REALZIES. That’s the point of “developing” the relationship. If there was one statement to conclude this, it’s “Oddballs shall stay oddballs all the way through the long haul. And they are in it for the long haul. So watch out boys, we’re not into the petty kind of dating.”

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A love between two people should be based upon three baselines- is it solvable? Is it entertaining? Does it sparkle? In my previous case- and I finally see this now- It was certainly NOT solvable. It was entertaining…to me. Did it sparkle? Well, it was like someone threw a heavy blanket over a dying flashlight.  There is beauty in the way that life works sometimes- how it can twist and turn your memory of events into something you like; how it can make things that aren’t real appear as reality; how you can be one person on minute and change yourself into the acronym of who you are just so you might seem more appealing to someone you like the next minute. If you love someone, and they really do love you, they will help you to become your best you, not you you’re best them. Think of life as a crossword puzzle- it’s merit and its prominence should be judged in the same way. So next time you find yourself in a relationship- be it good, bad or A-OK, ask yourself this: Is it solvable? Is it entertaining? Does is shine? And even though I’ve only been alive for 16 years and however many months, I do know this much about falling in love with someone: We have a natural want to fill empty spaces- not just in love, but in making your way in a world that doesn’t always embrace unique. I tried to fill my empty spaces with an eccentric friend who can deal out relationship advice- and my friends who remind me why single is a good thing- and that guy I liked. But that wasn’t the answer. Now I know; on the tour of life, just find someone as normal as you- if not, a whole bunch.                

Oh, and here’s a little bit more fresh wisdom: If you love someone, set him free. If you have to stalk him, then he probably was never yours to begin with. ;)