Awkward

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Ladies, it has been too long. This last year has been crazy with a steady amount of adventures we will be happy to share with you. Being back is very exciting and we hope you’re just as excited! This blog will have quality of content like nobody’s business ;) First off though, Rose wants to ramble on about her FIRST REAL DATE (“Doth thou heareth the screeches of my fellow ladies?”): It actually occurred no further than a month ago, so it is fresh in my mind to share! This guy I accepted a date from, is quite attractive. His jaw could cut paper *fans self*. You know me though; the biggest deal sealer was his insides. He’s a sweetheart with an accepting nature I haven’t found in a while. He’s very refreshing and I will be going on a second date this Thursday! Funny how simple dating really is....I always thought there had to be a process of quick glances and embarrassing first contacts. It happened out of the blue for me. I couldn’t be more confused at the time, but the moment I checked yes (quite literally; oh I can’t wait to tell ya’ll about it!!), a weight of worry lifted off my shoulders. Clarity emerged through all the little worries every 16 year old dares someone to say they don’t matter. I may be 17, and getting older, but I still had a fear that it’d be majorly awkward and I’d be red as a tomato. BUT IT HAPPENED AS QUICKLY AS HE COULD JOG BACK DOWN THE HALLWAY AT WORK lol. It turned out he was so nervous about how I’d respond that once he got my answer, all he could think about was running back to his office to poor over the piece of paper he’d given to me <3 *dies a slow death from over exposure to cuteness* He forgot to ask for my number too, so I had to ungracefully run across my work parking lot in high heels to get to him (Rose is working now? She actually got employed?). There is so much more to this story, but the ending point is that Rose’s dating exposure is getting a little more intense! And she’s even gained a story on this first date that will have you rolling on the floor laughing till you hurt. At least my friends did when they heard it  :P So much to say now that I am back, but I will leave you all with this until next week; Love isn’t a part of the dating equation, only a growing background noise until it jumps out at you! It’s a hue of color that shows clearer as you discover favorable traits in a person, and sometimes even the weird traits! I’m sure not in love with this guy, but I’m willing to find more about him since things are going pretty swell  :3

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I have a good story too: My counterpart was not the only one asked on a date: I was asked to accompany a male friend twice. Not that it would bother me in a proportional manner (i.e., one request one week, another the next) but no. By my luck it was in the same forty-five minute period. Awkwardly, as expected, I PANICKED SO HARD THAT MY TOUNGUE WENT NUMB AND I PASSED OUT AT MY SEAT FOR 30 SECONDS. I said no to the second guy who asked me. Only a friend (I always feel bad for the guys who get friend-zoned…he also bores me to death), I had to put off the first offer because of a stinking chemistry test I had to study for; it was also last minute. After being asked to wait and face this person, I was like “Sorry, you missed me by a few seconds. I’ve made it to my location.” Awkward. AWKWARD. I guess though, now that I’m past the initial shock, I can handle this now. At least, I say that and when/if it DOES occur again, I’ll be just as panicky.

                Anyhow…hey guys…welcome back…season’s greetings…seen any good movies lately? This may take some time, being we’ve been away for almost a year now, but we’ll find ways to accurately put words onto text documents soon. Until that day, I wrote this out of the blue on Tuesday:

Like many of the special moments in life, you won’t see it coming. It will come at you from behind and engulf you like a wildfire does the driest landscapes. You won’t make sense of it; you won’t be able to explain it. You’ll just know that some significant event has taken place and you’ll be scared, excited, and relieved all in one moment.

                There’s a line in a song that goes: You think you know what you’re looking for, until what you’re looking for finds you. I figure that when it does find you, if it finds you, it is subtle. There is no confetti, no parade, but in one single moment, be it at first glance or over time, whether or not the two souls are alike or of difference, a connection is made- a bond so strong that the people around you can feel it. It lingers in the air. It is an energy with an unknown origin. It can be seen without showing itself and it can be heard without making a sound. It is a bond so strong that neither time, nor distance, nor any emotion can break it. It cannot be contained in a shift of the eyes. It cannot be said in a sentence, a book, or a word. It simply exists. It is felt pouring through every inch of your soul. It has been shared between two people and shall remain there. This energy exists in way that allows these two beings to create equilibrium and fade into one whole. It is as if a bridge is made and these two people melt into each other. If you were to hold up a cloth in the rain, the separate rain drops will soak through the cloth, and they become one steady stream of water. There is no trace that one was once two.